Empty Nest Syndrome

The reality of being alone is slowly sinking in. It doesn't thrill me. Actually it makes me want to cry instantly when I think of my son leaving in the fall. It is so hard to find balance. Being happy for him but sad for me. How did the years fly by so quickly? It was not so long ago he was just a little guy and now he is all 'growed up.' I have been trying to savour each moment with him knowing he will soon be gone. Nine months doesn't sound like that long but it seems an eternity when I think of him not being here. He is so dear to me. I likely have never loved anyone as I love this child. Our relationship is wonderful. He makes me laugh, he brings me joy, he makes me feel like I have done something right in this world. He is the best of me. He is such a great kid! How did I get so lucky to have him in my life?